Wishful Thinker

What do say- 

It`s been another hard year for me and my close people.  It seemned that things will going to be better,but  only for a short moment,  then it all get worse. So many dramatically changes with few time. We are in a hopeless place... remeiding some song lyrics.

I`am back in a situation, where I can`t do nothing. Shore I can, but  I know that my decisions will affect others. I can`t  put my mom to worry about me more. Just can`t. 

If I could I would start my life from blank sheet. I would leave all my problems behind my back and never look back. I would be away from people, who  hurt me. The deep sadness will be still in heart and soul, but my hapiness is waiting me. Somewhere. I would want to hope so.

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Paint splattered teardrops on my shirt

It`s been long time, since I first heard this song. The video -Gosh, how I love this type videos. Pure art, you know.  Deeper meaning. Million Different versions. Does this mean this or that...

If you do wonder, where I have been  and why I  haven`t  post for so long, then what else could I say then: "..."

I wount give promises new year promises ( to post more, to post about this or that ) to you, my lovely readers. I can`t, because I`m not shore if I`m able to keep my promise. 

I just try to live in a day.

But if you are hungry for more- then let me know, by e-mail, comment etc.

You are my motivators and if nobody tells, then I don`t no if you are interested or not. 

I know, that there are countless many good blogs what to read instead, but I hope  you beleive in me.

Wishing only all the best, L.

Muah, for good luck!

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Happy New Year, my sweet and dear readers.

Yours L.

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Stay with my heart ....

Hey,
 a sweet lullaby or  several once - twice  time before  heard lullabies are  haunting my head or mind. I wonder myself why have I been away so long ? Is it hurriness ( Am I like a little child inventing new words ?  ), is it laziness, is it - what?
So, my lovely kittens, despite all in past, now and  future I hope you are still with me and wait new posts.
Wrap yourself nicely  in a blanket, drink something warm-  a hot tea or something else and  enjoy  shades of pink. Again. 
 I don`t t understand, what`s the thing with pink.  I`m not really pink fan in other areas or daily life. I don`t have a lot pink clothes. Perhaps  it`s because " THE Dreamy effect " - it looks nice and fairy. Or is it it just about me? What you think. Do you like pink shades of the photos. Somewhy my thoughts  went to the very famous book - " 50 shades of Grey ". Shades, pink shades.

 

It's a sad but maybe
A self-caused trouble
Perhaps i've been sad
Longer than you
I might have been
Fooling my lover
You have always been

So much more to me      

                                                                      (Sophie Zelmani - Stay with my heart )

 

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Between dream and dreaminess...

 Do you like  tones of the photos? 

I like photos with similar tones like this  photo has- kind of like a Dreamy. Or not ?

Draft from May 2012 - :)

Seriously, it`time to deal with those many drafts.

BUT, 

when  I will  take time to do that  

and why ?

 Has anybody interested about me posting more ? 

 Tell.

Just simple that.

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Sinking in blue...

"A very slow & relaxing tune to sink your mind with while you float through space."

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Hello, Hello Kitty !

  Once again I`ve been gone like forever. Sweet kittens, if you want, then stay with me, but know, that sometimes I   have habit of disappearing.

Perhaps blogging is like running: If you stop- your mind and body forgets it  so easly and  quickly  and it`s really hard to start again. But when you took first hard steps, then  all the old memories come into your mind and once again you are addicted to it.

 

 If you say go
I'll go
If you want to take it slow
We'll take it slow
Put your hands over my eyes
I'm happy to be blind

I'll be damned
It's happening again
In minutes we'll see ourselves
In a whole new light
And pieces from ourshelves
Will take flight

Please stay with me
Stay with me

( credits to song 

Sarah Jaffe - Stay With Me )

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Strawberry-raspberry, ice-cream and the rainbow

Strawberry-raspberry , the rainbow ... and  of course the Summertime Sadness...

I know, badly done nails! But I was testing  colurs and then I notice, that I don`t have nailpolish, I was kind of hurry  to somewhere, but still I didin`t want to go otside with some nails painted, others  not. So I decided to paint really quick (but badly) all my nails like that. And also choose outfit with same colours. Gosh though, I was like a  rainbow that day. 

You know, it`s a homemade ice-cream. Tastes like a Coffee and Cocos. Nomnom.

 

Is the Lana del Ray Fieber over?

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Silence, silence. Long Silence. Say you wanna wake me.

It`s been long Silence, or what? I feel  I´m like  a somekind  hibernating animal, or not animal- perhaps rather wintering butterfly...or a bird who has been in South for a Summer. Logical, not.

Enjoy the music. And Silence.

Lately I have no Silence. 
Life has  made it`s  own twists and turns, I feel like I´m in the same or quite similat spot, where I was a  couple years ago. You know, if you last expect something, then it will happen. This time I`m not talking about good things. Bad things come same quietley and unexpectedly as good ones.
But however, life has teached me so much. 

• I'm used to things, which I thought I will never get used to.

• If you have some  problem or you worrie about something, then I know how to  not worrie about it. It`s not a good solution, but if bigger problem rise up, you know, old problems seems to be in little bit better light. Yesterday`s problems may be   tomorrow  quite  tiny. 

I miss my Silence. I miss time, when  things  surround me was  quiet. I miss to hear a birdsong or squeaky floor rather loud Tv commercial. I miss time, when I was safe and sound. All by my own.
I`miss time, when I could be in the warm blanket surrrounded in middle of the day, drinking a sweet tea and read a good book, watch some  movie or just draw or paint something, alone.

Goodbye my Silence. I miss you terrible. Already.

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Birds fly to South. Flowers wilt, instead to flourish...

It`s Autumn time. These are kitchen gardens poppies.

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Come morning light, .... to Le` Cafe with me.

Le` Cafe time.
Hello, I`m still alive, but somewhy I have no motivation to post. All " art stuff "  (you know paintings, illustrations...) seems to be too personal to share, lately. I don`t know what`s  the thing with that, but perhaps it goes over, eventually.
In the meantime enjoy this. Some random pictures, what I had taken.

 

Homemade Apple  Pie.

 It`s just a gorgeos song. So deep and  sad, but extreamly beautiful, for me.

Mother`s Day rose...

Homemade Apple  Pie.

 Rumor has, that this scene is inspitartion for the  previou song.   Isn `t it sad, but at the same time beautifully act scene? Emotions looks so real.





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Come and go morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound...

to Sunrise, toSunset...
Just a little bit photos. Not good ones, but memorial rich  for me. Enjoy. 

 

  

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Unfold me, I am small. part II

 I`ve been here  so many times before....

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Unfold me, I am small.

So many times I have thought to make a post with this song. There has been several drafts with headline " Unfold me, I am small."  So, several months ( I guess) has passing by and now I finally post something which includes this song. I think I don`t want to overload this blog with all kind of inpirational stuff, so perhaps I`m gonna put all/some  " Extra`s " into my other blog. You get there by clicking HERE.
Be sweet, my darlings.
L.

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Jelly bean art with 288,000 jelly beans

 

22 months
1,357 hours
30 people
2 ladders
1 still camera
288,000 jelly beans

 This is  ART.

 

Be shore, that you will watch behind the scenes too. Because after watching that video - I think I like the song more. Because when I saw how much time they have put on this, then I just want to say that the song is actually deeper and more meaningful when it first looks. That`s ART. After the time you can see "amazingness" behind the mask. .

Oh, and the artist?   About her- she is one of those talented " youtubers" . She is the one and only KINA GRANNIS.


This time is no my photos in this post, it is because, that you could put all your attention to the video.  Sorry.  Just that they have done so much hard work.

BUT ...
 When I finished writing the last sentences, I thought that things would or should  be opposite, I should show my support with creating something like that myself. There are some  super quick  "sketch trys" in the begging of the post.

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Pink Paradise with gentle melody

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Last post was like irony, because when I finished the post and published it, it was raining. 
But I remembered this song in that moment, it just came in my head, again. Actually I think it`s quite suitable to listen this piece of art with gentle rain. The mixed sound - rain and sad melody.
 Hm, ... 
Inspirational.
Perhaps it i gives more spiritual connection, or what do you think?

 

 

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